Fell asleep around 1030. Woke up around 1230. It’s now past 4 am and I haven’t been able to fall back asleep.
Listen to me, you can’t fix people.
Your love won’t make him stop hating his father
and your devotion won’t cure her of her childhood.
All you can do is be there, violets sprouting out
from your ribs, acceptance on your lips, your own
wounds still bleeding and all you can do is be there
and sometimes that’s enough, sometimes that’s everything.
I despise my own hypersensitiveness, which requires so much reassurance. It is certainly abnormal to crave so much to be loved and understood.
The universe is made up of experiences that are designed to burn out your attachment, your clinging, to pleasure, to pain, to fear, to all of it. And as long as there is a place where you’re vulnerable, the universe will find a way to confront you with it.
In a world of passive aggressive behavior, speaking directly is seen as rude and overtly antagonistic. To avoid the assumed ensuing conflict, people resort to passive aggressive or “indirect” language to placate and appease.
Now yes, there are some who mistake the fact that they speak “aggressively” for them being “direct.” Speaking ascerbicly is not speaking directly. It’s just saying something bluntly with a nasty tone. That’s not direct communication. That’s self-serving and rude.
However, direct speech is purposeful and specific. It addresses people in a way that is clear and brings awareness to the subject without being nasty. It fosters mutual discourse and seeks understanding. It’s not defensive. It’s not avoiding. It’s not self-serving. It’s speaking for the purpose of clarification, education or resolution.
Packing to move and I have way more stuff than I thought I did.
How I know I have my priorities in order:
I am moving. I found an apartment that I liked and before I filled out the application to move in I double checked to make sure that my favorite vegan pizza place still delivered there.
A+ life choices.