I just keep looking at these two pictures and just fucking crying. That is where I get my smile from. That half smile that isn’t a smile at all, it’s my dad’s. This stupid fucking giant nose and those smile lines. The way our bottom eyelids always look heavy. My cheekbones. It’s all dad’s. I’d fucking give anything to talk to him just one more time.

I just keep looking at these two pictures and just fucking crying.

That is where I get my smile from. That half smile that isn’t a smile at all, it’s my dad’s. This stupid fucking giant nose and those smile lines. The way our bottom eyelids always look heavy. My cheekbones. It’s all dad’s.

I’d fucking give anything to talk to him just one more time.

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tagged: dear diary
  1. lettherebelumos reblogged this from loveyourchaos
  2. yaneezanis said: i know how u feel. i lost mine on christmas last year. sometimes i have to numb myself to get through the day…
  3. libertinebbw said: Your nose is lovely, as is the rest of you. You are way too hard on yourself. Some day, you’ll be 40 like me, and will look at pictures of your younger self and think, “I was cute. I was just fucking adorable. Why the hell wasn’t I kinder to me?”
  4. mysecretsdesires said: i know it hurts.. but you still have him with you.. eveytime you see yourselft at the mirror.. you can see him =) he will always be with you… and that’s a gift!! =) i know sometimes we need more than just the memory but…. =) he is with you
  5. darkxshines said: I know your pain. I lost my dad just over a year ago to cancer as well (liver). I see him in myself every time I look in the mirror. It’s hard, but it just reminds me that he’ll always be a part of me…literally. Hang in there <3
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